Long story short…I suck at being consistent and following through with training.
I worked SO hard to create the perfect training schedule and set myself up perfectly to be prepared for my half marathon. And here it is, day 22 of training and I’ve pretty much done nothing but make excuses and whine. I even set up reminders on my calendar to write recap posts and haven’t completed those in a timely manner either.
Week 1: Monday-3 miles, Wednesday-30 min elliptical, Saturday-4 miles
Week 2: Monday-3 miles, Wednesday-30 min elliptical, Saturday-5 miles
Week 3: Monday-4 miles, Wednesday-30 min elliptical, Saturday-5.5 miles
Week 4: Monday-5 miles, Wednesday-30 min elliptical, Saturday-6.5 miles
Week 1: Monday-3 miles, Wednesday-3.5 miles
Week 2: Tuesday-4 miles, Thursday-4 miles
Week 3: Monday-27 min elliptical, Thursday-20 min elliptical, Saturday-2 miles
Week 4: Nothing so far…planned to either run 4 miles or get on the elliptical tonight before dinner.
And the plan to get back to my “happy weight”….yea…no progress there at all. Dropped a few pounds then gain the right back. I’m tracking 5 days a week though and being pretty honest about it. Or at least trying to. It’s the weekends that really put a hitch in my giddy up. And beer…beer doesn’t help either.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I cannot get motivated and I can’t stop being negative. EVERYTHING in my life I feel negative about. I’m sad and miserable for no reason at all. I see it, and I hate it, but I’ve not done anything about it. I keep hoping I’ll just wake up and be back to feeling happy and focused. My social calendar has been fuller than I like lately too which hasn’t helped. The husband and I had a chat last night and he agreed to help push me more and get me moving on the weekends instead of being lazy. I just have to get the long run over with, then I have the rest of the weekend to relax and eat. It’s all mental. I need to get past this mental hurdle. (Then the physical hurdles can begin….ugh…)
I’ve been posting a lot of my training stuff on Instagram to help keep myself accountable. Mostly I think I am annoying my few followers because I’m such a “Negative Nancy”. I love the positive comments and likes though. It really makes me feel better about myself to know there are people who care.
It’s no wonder I have no friends IRL. I’m horribly depressing and probably annoying to be around. Ugh.
On a more positive note, I was just informed that the new water bottle I ordered from Amazon has arrived. I’m super excited about it. I bought a belt water bottle holder years ago, but didn’t like how it felt so I don’t wear it. I’ve been running with a regular bottle in my hand for a while now, and it’s been a little annoying. And last week after I got bumped by a car on my silly 2 mile run (long story…see my IG...I’m fine…) the husband asked me to carry my phone when I run in case something happens. So that inspired me to order one of the fancy hand held ones that have pockets. I might just go out and try it tonight on the road. But maybe not…I’ll probably just make excuses and not do a dang thing…who knows…
I also ordered some energy beans that are supposed to be super great for mid-run pick-me-ups. I’ll give those a shot on my next long run, whenever that is. I don’t really like jelly beans, but of all the other options out there they seemed the least horrible. Plus the little packets will fit nicely in the pocket of my new water bottle! I bought a whole case of them so hopefully they are worth it. If not…maybe I’ll do a giveaway.