Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Things...

I randomly decided to make lists of things. Don't ask me why. I like lists. I'm weird.

10 things I won't eat:
  1. Eggplant
  2. Squash (not including yellow squash or zucchini)
  3. Curry seasoning
  4. Oysters
  5. Veal
  6. Jello
  7. Anything lavender flavored
  8. Artificial cinnamon flavoring
  9. Canned condensed tomato soup
  10. Sweet potatoes

10 things that terrify me:
  1. Jello
  2. Being in water
  3. Trucks carrying rebar
  4. Sudden drop offs (Heights are fine, as long as I am not near the edge)
  5. Movies involving aliens, ghosts, or demons
  6. Death
  7. Cabinet doors left open
  8. Wind blowing through the pine trees in my back yard
  9. The germs that live on escalator hand rails
  10. Unfinished basements

10 things that always make me laugh:
  1. Farts
  2. My inability to open a box of Kraft Mac & Cheese
  3. "That's what she said!"
  4. Shrek
  5. CakeWreks
  6. Mana Mana...do doooo do do do
  7. The word furburger
  8. Making fun of people I hate to their face in a sarcastic voice so they don't know I am serious.
  9. Taking pictures of myself with an orange peel in my mouth and texting it to my husband.
  10. Getting an instant message asking "Are you there?" and responding "No."

10 things that give me rage:
  1. The Bitches
  2. People who think "alot" is a word. (This is an Alot.)
  3. Turkey bacon
  4. White chocolate
  5. Frivolous helium balloon abuse
  6. Homeless people with pets
  7. Walmart
  8. Time left on a microwave
  9. Emoticons in professional emails
  10. People who don't use their turn signals.
10 things I love to smell:
  1. Lilac
  2. Baking bread
  3. Sharpies/Dry Erase markers/White out
  4. My husbands deodorant
  5. Old books
  6. Coffee beans
  7. Bounce dryer sheets
  8. The ocean
  9. New shoes
  10. My dog after he is groomed.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

I need to quit my bitchin'...


The Internet gave me a much needed bitch slap this morning. 

The first thing I do every morning is catch up on what I missed on Twitter while I was sleeping. This morning, while sipping my coffee, eating a croissant with ham & cheese, I read 3 blog posts in a row talking about struggles with weight, both losing and keeping it off.

It hit me like a ton of bricks. My 2 year Thin-aversary is in a WEEK!

For the last year I have been whining and bitching about how I am struggling to get back to my lowest weight a measly little 5lbs from where I am today.

Why am I making such a big deal over this? My pants fit (they aren't even tight). I am within my 2lb Lifetime buffer zone.  I have a "healthy" BMI. I look in the mirror and love what I see.

So why the frack does that number on the scale bother me so much?  Seriously, why?

I'm not running or hitting the gym like I used to. I suck at tracking. If it really meant that much to me to be a certain number on the scale, I would be doing the things I know I need to do. Instead, I am eating moderately healthy, and beating myself up once a week when I step on the scale.

I really think it's okay though. I'm not out of control. Things are where they should be even if it isn't were I want it to be. The few times I have been up in a not so great range, I got it back down almost immediately.

Maybe my desire to be 5lbs lower than where I am at is actually what is helping me stay in the range I need to be in?  I don't know. But what ever is going on is obviously working so I need to STFU and keep doing it.

The point however is this...I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and start feeling greatful. I need to not be such a twatwaffle because it could be much worse.
Anyway...

Here is a mid year update on the goals I set for myself in January:

2012 Goals:

1)  Get back to my "Happy Weight" and stay there! None of this up and down shit.:  See above.
2)  Maintain my 4.0 GPA: NOPE...3.9...Got a B in International Dynamics. Don't get me started.
3) Run the 8k Shamrock Run (not the 15k like I really want, I am just not ready...maybe 2013) - March: Done
4)  Race for the Roses 5k- April (Found out they have a 10k...thinking on this one...):  Nope, but did the Bridge to Brews 10k instead
5) Personal - May: Next week....gulp!
6) Portland to Coast - August: Have a team, and race is on schedule!
7) Race for the Cure 5k - September:  Need to register
8) Graduate from College - December:  Still on schedule
9)  Go to Cleveland for Christmas - December:  Plane tickets purchased and added a week in Disney to the end of the trip.
11) Blog at least once a month:  Didn't post in June.
12) Finally convince the folks at Weight Watchers to fly me to New York and make me an official Success Story. (yea,yea, this one is a LONG shot...but a girl can dream, right?):  Not yet, but I will begin drafting my 2 year Thin-aversery email tomorrow for sending on the 19th.
13) Attend a Weight Watchers meeting AT LEAST once a month, earning a new Key in December:  Still on track.

That's all I have for now. Sorry I don't have any pictures. Next month will have a LOT of pictures in the PTC post.

Oh, and I have a race on the 22nd. A 4 miler that I signed up for because it has a race medal. I want a damn medal!  I haven't run since May 27th. I imagine the race will not go well.

XOXO