I have been neglecting the Internet a lot lately because my life is so out of control I needed to cut something out to make space.
My life is still a mess and I feel completely out of control. Which is odd because I have every last detail planned and organized to get me through all this.
School is almost over and getting really overwhelming. If I didn't graduate in less than 2 months I might consider dropping out. I had a HUGE project due Monday. Of course I have know about it for over a year and waited to the last minute to work on it. I got it done on time and am just waiting for the grade on it. I should be okay, but if not...I don't graduate. I lost my 4.0 a few months back and haven't been the same since. After I recovered from my first B, I got my second one....3.8 GPA right now. Whatever. Finishing up Organizational Ethics, then I take Strategic Management..then I get my diploma. December 15th can't come soon enough, let me tell you!
As those of you who follow me on Twitter know (those of you from Facebook or real life might not know) we are in the process of moving. We sold our house and have to be out by the end of October. We are in the process of buying a new house and if all goes well we close on that early November. Right now my house is about 80% empty. We just have our clothes, bed, couch, TV and basic necessities. It sucks. Even my pantry is packed into storage. We are eating our way through the contents of our fridge and freezer. We hope to be completely out of the house this weekend and will crash at my Mother in Law's place until we can move into the new house. Words cannot express enough how excited I am for that one...let me tell you. Of course there is lots of drama with the whole deal, but I won't get into it. The house we are moving into really is our dream home and that is all that matters. All of this struggle and drama will be worth it in the end.
I haven't been to a Weight Watchers meeting since June (?). My free Lifetime status has expired and I am just enough over my goal weight that I am to embarrassed to go weigh in. I am now paying for the online tools, that I am not using. My weight has been pretty steady, but slowly creeping up little by little. I'm in moderate control so I'm not too stressed about it. I keep promising myself when my life settles down and I can get my routine back I will start tracking, going to meetings, and being a good Weight Watcher. But until then...I will eat all the food.
I am also not running. Or walking. Or doing any physical activity other than packing and moving. I haven't since June. I feel terrible about it. I cancelled my gym membership today which made me feel like total shit. I honestly cannot remember the last time I hauled my ass to the gym. I didn't cancel my membership because of that though. Where we are moving is not near the gym. Also, I will be turning the 4th bedroom in the basement into my home gym. I plan to sell my treadmill to buy an elliptical as soon as we move. I prefer to run outside and find that the ellipti-suck is a better work out when trapped in doors. I get less bored. I will also be setting up some floor mats and a TV/DVD player so that I can do work out videos. I'm actually pretty excited about it. Setting up my own little gym sanctuary will be fun. Hopefully I use it.
I might be cutting the Internet back out again for a while. I dunno. I'm struggling. I hate politics and football and that is all anyone seems to be talking about. I'm also struggling with some anger/jealousy issues that I need to deal with. I need to get into a better mental space. Usually my Internet friends help me with that, but it doesn't seem to be the case lately.
Sorry this isn't as funny as my usual updates and that there are no pictures. I'm super boring. Ya'll are lucky you got even this much out of me. Seriously. I should be packing....or doing homework...or push ups.